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Post by layla on Aug 13, 2012 13:40:18 GMT
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[atrb=width,400] stuck in her daydream Lily pushed her way out of the busy smoothie bar, leaving behind her a bunch of busy college students all trying to get refreshed before their next lecture. Lily herself has atleast another hour before her marketing class began so for once in her life she had time to kill. Lily found herself feeling a little lost without a list of tasks to complete. Ever since she was a little girl she’d always been the one to keep busy, to join as many clubs as she could or work on her science project before anyone else. An idle Lily was a distraught Lily and she couldn’t remember the last time she’d been left with her own company.
The day had been extremely busy as usual and it was only lunch time. Cheerleading practice at seven that morning followed by a sessions at the gym then a morning full of classes. Her stomach was in desperate need of filling so she greedily pressed her lips to her straw and enjoyed the taste of her banana smoothie. It instantly perked her up, not that she was in need of energy. She always had more than the average person. As she walked the busy streets she contemplated going back to campus to work on a speech for an award she was accepting later that week. It was far too nice a day to stay cooped up inside though so she decided to let her feet make the decision and see where she ended up.
Before too long she found herself heading in the direction of the park. The sun was shining down on her, kids were running around as were joggers and students taking a break from the busy city. Lily had always loved this park, it was one of her favourite places to spend time alone. When her and her siblings were little their parents would take them there every Thursday after school to play. It was the only day of the week Lily wasn’t at gymnastics, or tutoring or ballet or one of her other many activities. It was always fun to run around and play on the swings, hasseling her brother to push her higher and higher before throwing herself off the swings to see how far they’d land. Just being there relaxed her much more than anything else. Lily needed time to separate from the world every now and then.
Finding an empty park bench, Lily planted herself down, giving her feet a much needed rest. Running a hand through her hair she looked around, smiling at a set of little twins that passed her with their nanny. She’d always loved kids and planned on having at least four when she met the right person. She may have been relaxing but she’d never break free of her habit to be productive at all times. Rummaging through her bag she found a thick pink planner that came with her everywhere. Pages hung out of it, the latch unable to close around all of her notes. Flipping it open she sucked on her drink and she went over some final plans for a party she was planning for her sorority.
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Post by mckenna on Aug 13, 2012 15:29:32 GMT
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Post by layla on Aug 13, 2012 16:13:37 GMT
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[atrb=width,400] stuck in her daydream Lily scanned over the flower arrangements, her outfit, the caterers bill and every other tiny little aspect that just had to be perfect. She’d always been a perfectionist quite to her detriment. When others were off having fun, she was worrying over the wording of an essay or that her back hand spring still needed work. It was like her brain never stopped working and sometimes it drove even her crazy. Thankfully she’d found a few magical little pills that kept her on track and made sure she kept her usual upbeat mood up. Well in her own little world, she was interrupted by the voice of another little girl approaching her. It was typical Lily to look up and offer the child a sweet smile and as she did so she honestly got a jolt. The sweet little blonde looked an awful lot like herself of her twin when they were little. The same blonde hair, fair skin and the exact same smile.
Looking up she went to offer a smile to the girls mother but fell short as soon as she landed eyes on her. It was no stranger, in fact quite the opposite. Lily stared blankly up at the other blonde, shocked, stunned, mortified. McKenna Clarke. Lily’s fraternal twin sister. Memories flooded Lily’s mind before she could do anything else. The girls had always been close, inseperable since they were born. Even when they were older and followed different paths they were close. Lily took the route of success and acting like a lady and McKenna was the wild, fun one. She’d always stuck by her sister though and then she left. No phone call, no email, nothing. She’d been so angry and hurt that Lily had pushed McKenna out of her mind completely and she and her brother pretended she didn’t exist.
She did exist though and she was standing right in front of Lily. Just as she was about to say something she realised what the little girl had called her sister. Mommy. Mommy? What the hell? For a clever girl, it sure did take awhile for Lily to realise what this meant. Her hand quickly covered her mouth to stop herself from spitting her drink out in surprise and her eyes wandered back down to the little girl. No wonder she looked so familiar, she was a Clarke. Why hadn’t Kenna told her about her baby? Why hadn’t she come home earlier? Why hadn’t she come to see the family right away? So many questions started piling up that she realised she was still speechless. The blonde looked back up at her sister, ”Kenna? Mommy? What the fu-hell?” she blurted out, careful with her cursing when she remembered the little girl. ’What are you doing back?” she asked, still shocked, her eyes travelling between her sister and her niece, having no idea what to do.
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Post by mckenna on Aug 14, 2012 1:26:37 GMT
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you can't tell mom and dad, or even (brother) what I'm about to tell you right now. she said to her. Kenn looked at her seriously. I trust you won't, I just know I need to tell them myself.[ she nodded. okay so remember Ben broke up with me? she asked her about a week after I discovered I was pregnant, and that was when I went to you, I knew I needed to sort my life out and rehab was the way to go she carried on. so I went, obviously and then stayed with a friend after. I couldn't face going back, face mom and dad and I was worried they would tell me to either get rid of it, or put her up for adoption she went on I wanted the baby and as selfish as it may sound, I saw it as a chance to sort my life out, a chance to start over. But I wanted her, and once I'd seen the first sonogram.....Lils I fell in love with her she told her honestly. I was scared, I knew I'd be doing it virtually alone but my friend helped me, and I was just really scared of mom and dad. I didn't need them telling me what I should do with my own life, you know? she knew she was going on a bit but she was explaining everything. I really wanted to tell you Lils, but I thought that a phone call would make things worse, I knew you would pursuade me to come back, I'd do it too, and I do wish I had done, just because of you.
so I got through the pregnancy and everything and once Ella could go to daycare I lived on my own for a while and worked. It was hard but I somehow I managed it. I worked two jobs and only really had the weekends free she said. Okay she really wasn't expecting sympathy and knew she wouldn't get it. I came back because I knew that I had to at some point. I couldn't just hide out forever. I knew that I needed to face reality. Face you, mom and dad, our brother, and Ben. she breathed a sigh of relief when she was finally done. so yeah, this is Ella amelia Clake (Starose) she said with a smile do you want to hold her? she offered.
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Post by layla on Aug 16, 2012 15:03:09 GMT
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[atrb=width,400] stuck in her daydream Lily hadn’t seen her sister in years. In the beginning she’d been overcome with worry, always searching for her, always thinking about her. Then, about a year ago, she stopped. McKenna was safe, if she wasn’t, the family would have been notified. It suddenly became clear to Lily that her sister just didn’t want to be found and all that angst suddenly turned into anger. Not anger she let out, Lily never let her anger out. Instead she bottled it up, tried her best to forget about her twin. If she wanted nothing to do with the Clarkes, then Lily would pretend she didn’t exist. It was an unusual approach for the usually sweet girl but that’s how she dealt with all the unpleasant things in her life. She simply ignored them and pretended they ever happened.
Now everything had come to hit her in the face and not only was it one person, it was two. She’d always imagined that the day she saw McKenna again she’d feel joy and relief, not to mention how happy she’d always assumed she’d be the day she finally had a niece or nephew. That wasn’t how she felt though. Instead she felt sick, she felt numb and her body went into shock. Her stomach churned, making her regret her smoothie, a dry lump formed in the back of her throat and she sat there and simply stared. To passer bys she probably looked like an idiot. Thoughts raced through her mind as she processed everything happening. McKenna’s return, a gorgeous little niece, her parents, her brother. She wanted to tell McKenna to shut up and go explain to her parents but she couldn’t. Lily could never be that cruel and she physically could not speak. Instead all she could do was sit there and listen to her sisters words as best as she could though half of them raced right by her. Honestly, she felt like she was seeing a ghost.
She raised her hand a little to wave at the gorgeous little girl across from her, feeling terrible that she wasn’t being more enthusiastic to Ella but she still had no idea how to handle this. Lily understood to an extent why McKenna didn’t tell their parents. They loved their kids but they had their lives planned out from the minute they were born. Good grades, get into a good college, advance in a prestigious career, marry rich business man and have blonde little babies. So far Lily was the only one doing what was expected of her. They surely knew McKenna had her issues with partying but an unplanned pregnancy would certainly have rocked their perfect little world. ”I get why you didn’t tell mom and dad, but why didn’t you atleast tell me?” she finally stuttered out sounding nothing like her usual poised self. As soon as she heard her own voice she finally found the strength to actually talk. ”Kenna, you shouldn’t have just left. You wouldn’t have had to be working all those jobs and struggling for money if you’d just told us. Mom and dad would always support you. She’s their grandchild for gods sake, they would have got over you getting knocked up as soon as they met her” she told her desperately. She knew people didn’t like relying on their parents for help but when you had a child, she didn’t think it mattered. You were meant to get some perks out of being wealthy.
Shaking her blonde head she was a wreck. She was mad, she was happy her sister was back, she was excited to have a niece, she was sad that McKenna had felt so bad she left. If she wasn’t jacked up on caffine pills and prescription pills she’d be overly tired after just three minutes. ”Imagine if I did this to you? Imagine if i just left without saying anything, not even a word to say you’re safe? And then I just showed up? How would you feel?” she urged her sister, thinking of no better way to put it. ”You could have been dead for all we knew McKenna” she scowled. Lily rarely got angry with people but when it was her family, she found it surprisingly easy. Now that she realised she was being a bitch, well a bitch by Lily standards, she felt a pang of remorse. God she was bad at being mad. Why was so going on and on when there was something more exciting to dwell on? She looked back at Ella, finally letting loose one of her trademark smiles. She really was enough to warm your heart. ”Hey pretty girl, I’m your Auntie Lily” she held her arms out for the little girl to crawl into them, ”I’m very happy to finally meet you” she wrapped her arms around her niece, instantly falling in love. Handing the rest of her smoothie to Ella she looked back up at McKenna, ”Look I don’t want to be a b-i-t-c-h Kenna, it’s just a huge shock. You have a kid I didn’t know about” Lily sighed. ”She is beautiful though, it’s a shame I wasn’t there when you had her though” she added, ”Does Ben even know?” Lils asked suddenly. If Ben knew and she didn’t, she was seriously going to kill him for not telling her.
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Post by mckenna on Aug 16, 2012 17:11:50 GMT
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Lily asked why she hadn’t told her....at least she had understood why she hadn’t told their parents. Mckenna didn’t know why, she just shrugged. That wasn’t very comforting but she didn’t know how else to reply, but she felt that her sister deserved some kind of explaination so she thought for a minute, she wouldn’t make it up but she would just come up with something that made sense. Though if she was honest she couldn’t make sense of much right now. Nothing was making her feel too good if she was honest, and she was kind of wondering why she came back. If I am honest I don’t know why she told her I was scared. I knew I’d have to tell our parents at some point and I couldn’t handle them knowing she told her. I guess I thought that if I just went away then I could forget about everything, but I was wrong she sighed. God this was so hard, she just wanted to cry, cry and hug her sister but she could tell Lily was not in the mood for that. She didn’t want to tell her parents and now she would.
I didn’t think I had the choice she told Lily. I was so scared, I didn’t even have Ben, and he wasn’t speaking to me and I needed to leave to get myself sorted. There was no way I could have gotten rid of her, adoption or abortion and that was what I was afraid mom and dad would make me do, give her up for adoption. she knew that was right, their parents would have made her do that. you know that is what they would have done, escaping seemed to be my only option. I couldn’t bring myself to have her growing inside me and then have someone take her away. It wasn’t what I wanted she shook her head and felt tears come down her face. I’m so sorry Lils, I could have done things differently, I know that but I just..... her words trailed off. I wasn’t thinking straight she told her honestly. But you know things would have gone the way they wanted it, I wouldn’t have been able to get a say in it she said. I wasn’t allowed contact in rehab and was in there for a while, then when I got out I didn’t think anyone would want to hear from me she shrugged.
Mckenna bowed her head in shame, she could see why Lily was upset, of course she could, she had a really good reason and wasn’t going to argue about that, she never thought of the fact that they could have thought she was dead. She had never seen Lily so mad before, it was so weird. She knew the girl was known for her etiquette and poise. She was elegant and pretty much the opposite of mckenna. It was kind of funny seeing her mad, but she wasn’t going to laugh. She then let out a little laugh when her attitude quickly changed, her sister could never pull off being mad, but she really didn’t think that making a joke about it would be the right thing to do, Lily certainly would not find it funny. She watched Lily with Ella and smiled. At least she had her niece now, they would have to make up for lost time. she really hoped that Lily wouldn’t stay mad at her for too long, she could deal with her parents and brother being mad, but not Lily, not her best friend. She smiled again as Ella smiled at Lily and said her name... Lily.
She nodded I know she said I know... Lily was right. It was such a lot to get her head round. She could understand the way Lily was reacting. She probably wouldn’t want to speak to her if it was the other way round right now, she wouldn’t want to hear it. McKenna was so much less understanding than Lily, but that was why she loved her sister, Lily often brought out the best in her, she had wished that she had been around for her. when Lily said she wished she had been around when she’d had her kenn nodded I wish that you had been too, I am sorry you weren’t she said sadly. Oh she is beautiful, but she knows exactly how to get what she wants. I need to be more firm with her McKenna told Lily. When Lily asked if Ben knew, she shook her head No, he doesn’t she replied. he broke up with me before I fell pregnant. I tried to contact him to tell him but he didn’t want to know, he wouldn’t listen she said.
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Post by layla on Aug 19, 2012 14:07:47 GMT
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[atrb=width,400] stuck in her daydream Lily didn’t know what she would have done in McKenna’s situation to be honest. She knew she’d never get herself into that type of predicament but she could still sympathise and come to the conclusion that it would have been the most difficult thing ever. It was hard being perfect, that was probably why no one was but Lily still tried her hardest. That was part of the reason she was so shocked by everything. How could her and McKenna be so different? One of the things she admired most about her sister was her ability to just do whatever she wanted, whenever she wanted. It took guts and strength, two things Lily didn’t have. She tried her hardest to put herself in McKenna’s shoes, to understand what she was feeling and how she’d handled it. Lily did her best but she was coming up short.
As hard as she was trying, she was finding it really hard to keep being angry. It was really hard work and she had no idea how people did this all the time. Being mean was exhausting. The frowning, pursing of her lips, short emotionless sentences. None of it felt right and it really didn’t suit Lily at all. It was impossible for her to stay mad at someone, especially her sister. Especially when she’d been missing her for so long. Her face faltered as soon as she saw tears running down her cheek. That was it, she’d cracked. No more being mad. ”Kenna, we wouldn’t have let them make you do anything. We would have fought them with you” Lily reassured her. No matter what happened Lily and their brother would have done anything to help their sister. They were family and they were all used to the pressures that came with being a Clarke.
Lily shook her head when McKenna went down the rehab side of things. The whole topic made her uncomfortable. In Lily’s opinion her sister had been out of control and needed help but wasn’t it a little hypocritical of her to judge now? Then again Lily knew she didn’t have a problem. Aderall was totally acceptable in her eyes. Besides she used it for school not fun and she could stop whenever she wanted. A few prescription pills before graduation was nothing compared to what other students were doing. ”Ofcourse I would have wanted to hear from you after rehab” Lily protested, ”I’m the one who paid for it remember? You were meant to get better and come back”. Lily had been more than happy to help her sister. She’d always been responsible with her trust fund, her parents didn’t even check on it unlike her siblings so it only made sense they used her money. She’d hoped that McKenna would fight her demons then come back home so things could go back to normal. God she was naive.
Lily scowled at her sister and her laugh. See? Even when she was trying to be mad, people still found it funny. She really didn’t know why she bothered anymore. Bouncing Ella on her knee it felt quite natural for Lily, almost like she’d known the little girl for all of her short life. It was hard to be angry with such a cute little thing present. Now it was Lily’s turn to laugh and it felt so much better to be light hearted again. It was weird hearing her sister talk about parenting. ”I’m pretty sure mum and dad said the same thing about you when we were growing up” Lily giggled, pushing her hair out of her face. ”Seriously, if they could see you now, all responsible with a kid and everything, I think they’d die” she continued to laugh, just imagining their parents reaction. Her mother would probably faint from shock like the drama queen she was. ”You seem to be doing a good job though. Really, you are” Lily told her, getting over her giggles, ”I still can’t believe you had a baby. We were meant to have babies at the same time!” she remembered the plan they’d had when they were about thirteen. In keeping with the twin traditions the girls had promised they’d have kids at the same time so they could grow up together just like them. Things were so much easier when they were younger.
”He’s a dick” Lily shook her head, quickly realising that Ella was there and covering her mouth with a gasp. ”Sorry bubba” she apologised to the little girl and leant down to kiss her on the cheek. It was going to take some getting used to having little ears around. ”He’s still around though, I see him all the time unfortunately” Lily told her making no effort to hide her dislike towards Ben. She partly blamed him for Kenna leaving and she’d told him hundreds of times since she’d gone. ”How are you going to tell him? You are going to right?” she asked curiously.
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Post by mckenna on Aug 22, 2012 14:42:16 GMT
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She nodded I know she said. I guess I was ashamed of myself she said I wish I had done though, I bet there are so many people around this place who thought I was so far gone beyond fixing, I proved them wrong and I have been raising a kid. I think its kinda amazing....if I do say so myself she said with a smile. I may not have made the right decisions back then, regarding this whole situation, but everything I did was for ella, I thought at the time that I was all she needed, but as she got older I realised she needed more. Her grandparents, her aunt and uncle, especially her father she said. God, she hadn’t actually seen Ben since he dumped her, he had avoided her at all costs and she had tried her best to be in contact. He didn’t want to know though and that had made her sad, she hadn’t been able to say goodbye, all tell him they were going to be parents. Though back then maybe he would have said he didn’t want a kid, now....hopefully he would want to help her raise Ella. That was the plan anyway, she had no idea how she felt about Ben, but she certainly hadn’t been going on millions of other dates. Anyone who she dated, when they found out she had a kid they quickly escaped, and even sex hadn’t been an option since she had been so busy with Ella, she just hadn’t thought about it.
They probably did she said and it was probably true. They always did say you were the responsible one and I was ‘trouble’ she grinned I thought twins were meant to be ‘double trouble’ and all that, play pranks....you never wanted to help me though she pouted and then nodded when Lily said how amazed her parents would be seeing her now. I think they will be pissed. They had a grandchild and never knew she shrugged. I think they will find some way of calling me irresponsible she sighed. But thanks....I am glad you think I am. It means a lot coming from you, since you know how I was and all she said. Mckenna had grown up so much, she couldn’t even believe it herself. It was quite weird how much she had grown up, and she had done it all for a good reason at least. She giggled when Lily reminded her of their plan to get pregnant at the same time. Yeah, I know she smiled that could still happen. I do hope to have more. Ella needs a sibling or two to boss around. Lets face it, I KNOW for a fact she is going to be bossy she laughed. Things had been so much easier when they were little. Not much responsibilities, no boy trouble, no babies to take care of, she wouldn’t ever change her life now, but she was just saying.
Mckenna frowned slightly when Lily swore, but she wasn’t going to go off on her sister, she had said worse in front of her, by accident of course. Don’t worry, I swore the other day and she came out with it at the park, it was so embarrassing but I just had to laugh she cringed it wasn’t a really bad word but I did have to explain to her it wasn’t good she said. you do? she asked when lily said she saw Ben all the time. Mckenna had missed his company. After all, they had been high school sweethearts, together since they were fourteen. She had never wanted to split from him, and had seen herself married to him at one point, the drugs had screwed all that up for them though, or more like she had. Mckenna nodded of course I am...how exactly, I need to figure out. Any advice? she asked hoping that her sister would maybe be able to help her.
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Post by layla on Aug 30, 2012 14:54:57 GMT
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[atrb=width,400] stuck in her daydream ”Having her wasn’t selfish” Lily shook her head. Despite the circumstances she was ecstatic that McKenna had her very own little girl. She already loved her and obviously Kenna did too. More importantly, Lily could understand what McKenna was saying. Having Ella did straighten her sister out. The girl in front of her was definitely not the girl that had left all those years ago. She was mature, she seemed to be doing well for herself and she was responsible. The changes were only positive and Lily was genuinely happy for her. However, in the back of her mind she knew that if McKenna had have told her at the time Lily would have thought differently. While she would have supported her sister no matter what she’d never have thought having a baby so young, especially when she was no longer with the father, was a good idea. McKenna back then just didn’t seem mother material. She certainly was now and Lily for the first time in a very long time was proud of her twin.
”Ofcourse she loves me” Lily exclaimed, ”Everyone does” she tried her best to act cocky but couldn’t help but giggle. Whenever she tried to sound like it, she sounded like an idiot. ”You have done a good job as far as I can see” Lily agreed with an encouraging smile, ”But it’l be so much easier now that you’re back”. Lily couldn’t imagine raising a kid by herself. Her plan had always included a husband, a house and a ten year plan. Then again, she had a plan for every tiny aspect of her life. ”Atleast you’ll have an army of baby sitters at your disposal. I get first dibs though” she claimed with excitement. She could just picture it now, she’d get Ella a little cheerleading uniform made and tiny pom poms and take her to games with Kenna. She was very excited to have a little mini her running around. Even now she was planning things before they even happened. Typical Lily.
Growing up the twins had always been very different. McKenna found fun in parties and doing things she shouldn’t have been doing. Lily had her fun achieving, being in social clubs and maintaining the perfect, preppy popular girl image. Despite their differences though they were always close. ”Oh shut up” she laughed, ”I was trouble sometimes” she defended herself, ”Actually, no, I wasn’t” she laughed even harder. ”It was easier when we were really little and looked more alike. It was way easier to confuse people” she remembered. It was kind of nice reminiscing with her sister. ”I wonder which one of us she’ll be like” Lily nodded at Ella in thought. The idea of watching her niece grow up was really exciting to her already and she’d only just met her.
”Mum and dad will get over it as soon as they meet her. Seriously, mum will be more preoccupied with all the tiny outfits she’ll get to buy and dad will be on the phone already trying to get her into Harvard or something” Lily assured her. They may be pissed but her parents would never turn their back on family and if they wanted to be in Ella’s life then they had to accept that McKenna was her mother. Simple as that and it was actually something Lily would gladly fight them on. ”You just have to realise that they’re going to be really shocked at first. Just give them some time” she advised. While their parents loved them all equally, Lily always felt that she had a stronger relationship with them. Probably because she’d spent twenty-two years bending over backwards to please them. ”I bet you’ll have heaps more” Lily teased, ”Don’t have one soon though because I am definitely not ready for a baby and you can’t be two ahead of me”.
Lily laughed at her sisters story then shook her head with another laugh at Ella. How could you possibly tell that little girl off? Even though it was bad, she’d secretly always thought it was hilarious when little kids swore. They were so innocent they couldn’t possibly know what they were saying. ”I would have killed to see that. Atleast none of the other kids started repeating it” she giggled. Her face got more serious as she asked about Ben. ”Yeah I see him around” she shrugged, ”I hardly speak to him though”. Lily had never been Ben’s biggest fan. He was a bad influence in Lily’s opinion and someone to blame because when McKenna left, she really needed someone to blame. ”I honestly have no idea what you should do. Talk to him before he meets Ella though. You don’t want her around that discussion” Lily told her, ”Just be honest and to the point. There’s no easy way of putting it and you want to be the one to tell him before he hears it from someone else”.
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Post by mckenna on Sept 1, 2012 12:31:13 GMT
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wow, look at you being all cocky she laughed but I guess I can’t argue with that, you were soooo popular in high school, you hated it when all the freshman came around trying to steal your crown she giggled at the thought. I don’t know why I changed so much in college. I mean yeah I liked to party in high school, but so did most people, I guess I just went out of control in college, I mean I dropped out and everything. wow I must seem like such a bad daughter she sighed. thanks she smiled when lily said she had done a good job. well I doubt I will have that many takers, and I doubt I will need a babysitter all that much. I do need a job though and if you want to look after her you are welcome to she nodded maybe you can try and fool yourself that you won’t let her get away with the things she does, I do that all the time, but somehow she always gets me she bit her lip, that was the area she needed to work on, discipline was not her strong point at all.
kenn nodded its why everyone loved you lil, cos you got on with things. I mean I didn’t exactly fail high school, but I didn’t get good enough grades to go to UCLA, you know? she nodded I went to community college, oh the joy she rolled her eyes. no wonder I got so messed up she said. Okay that comment was snobby and stuck up, so unlike her. I didn’t mean it like that, it sounded bad, but I guess you would know what I meant she sighed. everything was easier when we were little she nodded. I mean it always is. no responsibilities |
[/color] she said with a shrug. Sometimes she wished she could go back and relive those days when she was a kid. and I hope for her sake she is more like you she added. When lily said to her their parents would get over it, she wasn’t so sure, she had no idea how they would react. She nodded, she knew full well they would be shocked, why wouldn’t they? And she had raised Ella on her own so far, they would most likely be speechless. But maybe, just once they would be proud of something she did. she really hoped they could find something of that for her because she had been such a mess before, and had just done so well to bring herself back and be normal again. But afterall, she wasn’t just looking out for herself now. She had Ella too and that took up so much responsibility, so much she couldn’t even begin to describe. I really hope they can see how much I have changed and be proud of me for turning my life around, and for looking after Ella she nodded.
yeah, it was funny. she smiled. At least her sister had found amusement in it, that was always a good sign. how do I just say ‘oh by the way, your a father’ its not easy at all she sighed. he probably hates me too much to even listen to me she said to him. I don’t even know how to begin. Maybe if he hadn’t dumped me before, we could have worked everything out together, back then. But now three years on its so much more awkward, you know? she sighed. This was not a conversation she was looking forward to at all.
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